I’ve enjoyed the simplicity of my life this past year, being less busy and trying to live simpler.
My most recent blog posts on 5 Reasons For My Busyness and 5 Things I’ve Learned in Not Being So Busy have hit a nerve. I’ve received encouraging words from women, different ages, having similar struggles.
One young woman wrote on my blog, “Girl, this so is what I needed to read this morning! I run 100 mph almost always… trying to figure out how to cut it back some, and finding that people depend on my busyness. Still working out what it’s going to look like… but this was so encouraging! I look forward to the time when I can sit back and just be me every once in a while.”
3 Key Points
There were three key points that offered encouragement to me:
First, she found that people depend on her busyness. Wow! To even go to that point, recognize it and want to move forward from that place. It encouraged and inspired me.
Second, she is still working out how that’s going to look. She doesn’t know. She doesn’t have all the answers. But she knows God requires her to seek Him during this process.
And then third, she is looking forward to sitting back and be herself every once in awhile. Yeah! Who can’t relate to that? I just wanna be me for a day!
Change is upon me.
God has instilled in me these last few days that change again is upon me. I have gotten use to my less-busy schedule and learning to enjoy and even shine in it. But there are signs things are a-changing.
Our recent college graduated son, revealed to me, he will be home this summer during the week and then go back to his apartment in his college town for the weekends. Somehow I missed that memo.
Our son Ryan, is graduating from high school (still crossing our fingers) and summer fever has already hit our house. Home earlier in the day, friends over, chaos swirling around and May isn’t even over yet. My kitchen won’t recover until September.
On the day of our son’s graduation party from college, my husband left for a trip, and I was left alone getting our house ready for a party. Ugh! Not how I planned the day.
And then my son proceeded to tell me that even though I do like to make blackberry cobbler and I may think it’s his favorite, it really isn’t. That’s after Ryan refused to mow a friend’s lawn that he promised he would do two days ago. The cobbler comment combined with some ‘tude in my house, took me off guard and hit a raw spot, that ordinarily wouldn’t have bothered me a bit.
Mixed emotions swirled in my head.
I found myself in a state of frenzy, mixed emotions swirling in my head and the need to “get away.” The get away part was crying in my bedroom. I felt so inadequate. I wanted a good party to celebrate our son’s college graduation, but felt unappreciated. My senior had attitude running all over the place, spilling over to our 15 year old son. I realized the male hormones overtaking my house, were more than I could handle at the time. What was the deal with me?
So God, what are you doing here? I thought my quiet life was good. But it appears you have other plans. Can you let me in on those plans?”
My comical response or should I say cry, on my end to God, who I thought had my back.
God uses life to change me.
God always uses circumstances in my life to change me, mold me and never to keep me in the same place. He wants change. He calls me to be in relationship with Him, to be in sync and once I step out, He calls me back.
In “God Calling,” Sarah writes, ‘It is not so much adverse events that make you anxious as it is your thoughts about those events. Determined to make things go your way, you forget that I am in charge of your life. The only remedy is to switch your focus from the problem to My Presence. Stop all your striving and watch to see what I will do. I am the Lord.’
I sense God moving me again.
I sense God moving in my life once again. The Spirit whispers, “You’ve settled Diane. You need to move on.”
Micah 7:7 says, “But as for me, I watch in hope for the Lord, I wait for God my Savior; my God will hear me.”
I sense God is urging me into different territory, whatever that may be (I have a clue or two). God knows I’ve been happy here. He knows I’ve learned contentment.
In 2 Corinthians 5:7 we read, “We live by faith, not by sight.”
I sense God is saying, “Will you trust me Diane? Even when life is swirling around in chaos, will you choose to trust me in this?” He knows I find comfort in the known and the unknown has always scared me.
Philippians 4:6 reveals, “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.”
I sense God urging me to enjoy my children, even though they add chaos. In the midst of them running in and out of the house, in and out of my life, in and out of my heart, God reminds me to treasure what I have today. Today may be chaotic. This summer might be busier than I expected. But tomorrow, they may be gone. Treasure your children today.
I sense God telling me that my peace is in Him and not my circumstances.
Philippians 4:7 says, “And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
And mostly, I sense God saying, “Through all this, I want you to find Me. I want you to seek Me. I want you to want Me. Just be with me Diane, each day. And from those moments I will give you strength, and peace and serenity.”
Are you willing to trust God in the unknown?
Will you choose to trust God in the unknown? Will you choose to trust God even when you are scared and uneasy in the changes in your life? God is there, ready to give you strength and power. I want to soar above my emotions. I want to soar above my circumstances.
“He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.” (Isaiah 40:29-31)